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wow i jz finished the god of bath house srsly it started out as a comedy but in the end it's all so gamdong TT

n quite educational like ya no matter how crazy your dream may seem jz chase it even if it doesn't really fits into the society

to what ppl expect you to be doing

well ok i want to go wm n be jinyoung hoobae xDDDDDD or jyp or cube got 2pm n beast

wthhh srsly educational is educational i'm not going to say i can't acheive the crazy dream

but srsly it isn't so easy it's not like i have the talent the age and the shape

aiks sometimes fairy tales shall jz remain as fairy tale

even if i get to be in wm it's not like i can date jinyoung TT

baek is a legend of legend ToT shin (Y)

well atleast he is korean, good in singing n hensum~

ottoke kpop is my only passion now what else should i do with my life ToT

well i wanna be a youtuber too xDD 

everytime aft finishing 1 webtoon you will hav so many thoughts abt life n you just can't carry on with the new world....

aiks it's like everytime when i read abt something my passion chges

but i had recently made a quote to myself it's like

even if you like burritos it doesn't mean you have to be a burrito

but then now coming to think of it

if i don't become a burrito what should i be?

hmmm will i even regret studying mass comm in kdu?

even though many portals they say they offer the best mass comm in MY

ahh it's like i'm studying it to fit into the society kindna dreamless now

It had been awhile heh

Helloo my bananas xD
Ahh I had made up my mind a little for now and I think I should really work hard on my studies ;>

But actually if its about following my interest being happy or studying for what I'm planning ahead but studying something I am not really interest in suddenly bothering me urghh...

Firstly, I would really love to study public relations in Korea so I can work as a PR there and enjoy what I love doing as in (yeshh meeting celebrities okaay xD) and getting involved in the entertainment industries (what I hoped to be in since small!)

Or, I'll study in Monash the bachelor of business and commerce double degree with communication. By that, I would be working hard on trying to be an entrepreneur that bring in korean university into Malaysia, welll that's what I hope I will be doing but it requires a lot of money and time I'll need to use my life to bet on it and I will have to give up my dream as a fancy pr living more comfortably with a constant salary hahaha

and I don't know if this dream is possible + I don't really have a solid count of succeeding it as I am not a chaebol loll + I'm not sure about its market in Malaysia too in the next 30yrs time or maybe 40yrs, it's a long way run though + I need a big bunch of money to do it too, I'll have to give up travelling around the world which is what I want to live for, if I happen to succeed and gain a lot of money to do so, I'll already be in my 50s that would be too old to be travelling freely and by that time my parents would be too old to be accompanying me

it's like making me choose between having my good times in my early age OR having a hard time first and achieving great success and enjoy in my old age

but it's not like I'll fail to have a great time when I'm old if I have a great early age experience

just maybe you'll feel that you didn't make something concrete in your life

but it's also not like that too for monash you can travel around the world through exchange programmes right

although it's just that it doesn't suit you by the dream of mine to bring my parents to travel with my own money

but actually up to the point it's actually if I want to live in Korea for the next 5 years or here and there.. yes, it's a pleasure to do so , and I'll able to live in my dream of oppass and stuff hahaha but if I travel, I'll be able to experience a lot and enhance myself right.

(I really love those moments where you actually discover yourself and realize much more than having the thoughts spinning in your head when you are analysing everything out in a blog post before telling you final decision and getting consultant from you mom haha) 

Actually, there's something bothering too if I'm going to have various exchange programme to other countries, it's the cost ma'am! plus, is it really what you like to study commerce haha! you are even dreaming of getting film and theatre rightt (oh ya there's this seoul school of art right!) maybe I could try to get that scholarship hahahaha by that my future would change too miss :P

I am very sure of my future and also very unsure :P well who is making my to vary my dream? the scholarships that I try to get actually

there's pros and cons of going anyway though, I think you can always list pretty well out knowing what would benefit you and you think are great vs what is not really great but interesting and you love it.

well, you only live once you are not do min jun you can't try a variety of stuff you know :P

letting the scholarship decide is not actually bad, it's like a sign of god telling you which route is right for you :P

So, back to the point what I shall do now is to maximise my chance for all 3 routes
1.studying mufy
2.learning korean
3.seoul art uni (scholarship)

heyy you are getting back to the point where you are unsure of everything again xDDD

Sometimes I think I am a lot more mature and had researched my stuffs earlier than others from my same age, it's seriously bothersome to care about those that don't know anything and rant stupid stuff in front of me arghh and sometimes giving them over much of information leading them to overpower me in an instance without effort just because they met me this great friend that don't study that love to do researches ahead xDDDDDD (well because I love the internet, I love writing and reading xD)

okay so maybe I had decided undergrad in monash n phd in yonsei maximising my possibilities yeahh and I'll work in pr field in korea and if I happen to have sufficient money and there is still market in malaysia I will bring my plan up again ^_^ I'll just have to delay and shorten my time at korea hahaha

or during like the december if I happen to get into any audition xDDDDDDDD I'll just try really hard to get seoul art uni then later on aft 5yrs i'll study phd in monash and travel around the world yayyyy then come back kr for pr and earn money and if I have money I will bring up my plan

heyyy! so the problem now is where first, and it will be decided base on scholarship opportunity ^^

SO NOW STUDY FOR SPM TO MAXIMISE THE CHANCES yeahh zou yi bu kan yi bu lohh can de la you have a great plan liao but actually is business or no business oni lahh ok la if monash 1st jiu study cause add 1k oni mahh if sogang 1st jiu don study lo it wouldn't change much right if you study or not rightt dono leh study more is hao shi lai d ahh i think ok dy i think dao liao is need monash 1st!!!! but not so happy liao lo hor but it's for maximising your chance like what you are doing now although not so like right ^v^ okieee
then yonsei for phd lahh then i can work in kr mahh (Y)

okieeeeeee jz if i happen to get in audition jiu terbalik la xD ei it's back to the starting point liao sui ran still mcm no conclusion but its getting clearer dy

EH BACK TO THE POINT WHAT YOU CAN DO NOW
1. study spm
2. try audition
3. study kr
4. learn dance
5. try seoul art
6. see spm try mufy
7. try get monash
8. try get sogang
OK DONE  I have a cute little 1 year check list le ^^ for now what I can do is just spm don't talk le yoo <33 ~~~

+ when holiday that time jiu sell ribbon + bracelets  + ask if can teach + learn kr n dance

OKIE IT'S AN ORGANISED PLAN ADY GO STUDY CAN MAHH WHY YOU NO STUDY I WAN CRY LIAO TT

typed these out when memorizing because i was too lazy to write bleh :P going to read cedric's sop nowww

1.kepercayaan kepada tuhan
-keyakinan wujudnya Tuhan sebagai pencipta alam
-mematuhi segala suruhanNya

2.Amanah
-sikap bertanggungjawab
-menimbulkan kepercayaan orang lain

3.Harga diri
-memuliakan maruah diri
-menjaga maruah diri
4.Bertanggungjawab
-memikul tugas
-melaksanakan kewajipan

5.Hemah tinggi
-beradap sopan
-berbudi pekerti mulia

6.Toleransi
-bertolak ansur
-sabar/mengawal diri
7.Kerajinan
-usaha yang berterusan
-ketekunan/kecekalan/dedikasi/kegigihan/berdaya maju

8.Kasih Sayang
-perasaan cinta yang mendalam
-perasaan cinta yang berkekalan

9.Keadilan
-Tindakan dan keputusan yang saksama
-Tidak berat sebelah

10.Kesederhanaan
-Sikap tidak berketerlaluan
-tanpa mengabaikan kepentingan sendiri dan orang lain

11.Rasional
-boleh berfikir
-bertindak wajar

12.Berdikari
-kebolehan melaksanakan sesuatu
-tanpa bergantung kepada orang lain

13.Kasih sayang terhadap keluarga
-perasaan cinta yang mendalam kepada keluarga
-perasaan cinta yang berkekalan kepada keluarga

14.Hormat dan taat kepada anggota keluarga
-memuliakan setiap anggota keluarga
-berinteraksi dan memberi layanan secara bersopan

15.Mengekalkan tradisi kekeluargaan
-menerima kepercayaan yang diwarisi secara turun temurun dalam keluarga
-menghormati adat / mengamalkan kebiasaan

16.Tanggungjawab terhadap keluarga
-kewajipan kepada keluarga
-melahirkan keluarga yang bahagia
-meningkatkan imej keluarga

17.Menyayangi dan menghargai alam sekitar
-memelihara alam sekeliling
-memulihara alam sekeliling

18.Keharmonian antara manusia dengan alam sekitar
-hubungan yang harmonis antara manusia dengan alam sekeliling
-kualiti kehidupan manusia dengan alam sekeliling terpelihara

19.Kemampanan alam sekitar
-pengekalan keseimbangan alam sekeliling
-tanggungjawab bersama
20.Peka terhadap isu-isu alam sekitar
-prihatin terhadap persoalan alam sekeliling
-berusaha menyelesaikannya

21.Cinta akan negara
-perasaan sayang dan bangga terhadap negara
-meletakkan kepentingan negara melebihi kepentingan diri
22.Taat setia kepada raja dan negara
-kepatuhan yang berkekalan kepada raja
-kesetiaan yang berkekalan terhadap negara
23.Sanggup berkorban untuk negara
-kerelaan melakukan atau menyerahkan sesuatu
-sebagai tanda kebaktian kepada negara
24.Melindungi hak kanak-kanak
-membela dan memberi naungan
-memelihara hak kanak-kanak

25.Menghormati hak wanita
-mengiktiraf wanita
-melindungi wanita

26.Melindungi hak pengguna
-memelihara hak individu untuk menjadi pengguna yang bijak
-hak untuk mendapat perkhidmatan danbarangan yang berkualiti dan tidak mudah dieskploitasi

27.Menghormati hak golongan kurang berupaya
-memberi layanan secara bersopan
-mengiktiraf mereka sebagai insan ciptaan Tuhan
28.Melindungi hak pekerja
-menghargai jasa dan sumbangan golongan pekerja
-mengiktiraf jasa dan sumbangan gonglongan pekerja

29.Mematuhi peraturan dan undang-undang
-menerima peraturan
-mematuhi undang-undang

30.Kebebasan bersuara
-kebebasan berucap dengan batasan tertentu
-kebebasan mengeluarkan fikiran dengan batasan tertentu

31.Kebebasan beragama
-kebebasan menganuti agama
-kebebasan mengamalkan agama

32.Sikap keterbukaan
-bersedia memberi pandangan
-sedia menerima pembaharuan

33.Penglibatan diri dalam pembangunan negara
-kebebasan melibatkan diri dalam aktiviti pembangunan negara
-dengan mematuhi peraturan, undang-undang dan Perlembagaan Malaysia

34.Hidup bersama secara aman
-Hidup berbaik-baik antara satu sama lain
-mengutamakan keharmonian

35.Saling membantu dan bekerjasama
-usaha yang baik dan membina
-dilakukan bersama
36.Saling menghormati antara negara
-memuliakan hubungan antara negara
-menghargai hubungan antara negara

weeeee~ why am I still stucked here!? haha!

I suddenly got very interested in sogang I think I'll study there just loook~!

http://world.sogang.ac.kr/english/academic/03_under_0125.html

Although I can't really understand the scholarship line.......

http://home.sogang.ac.kr/sites/egoabroad/exchange/predeparture/Pages/Scholarship%20.aspx

hmmm there's actually tonnes of scholarship according to studykr.com

http://sis109.sogang.ac.kr/sap/bc/webdynpro/sap/zcmw9016?sap-language=EN

but I never really understands them hmmm........... anyway half way making up my mind already~! it's famous for its liberal arts... wonder if that links to what I like heh..

actually I also considered busan national uni but I don't know maybe their web is not too informative that I drop that option off? But, I just suddenly have a good feeling towards Sogang its name just........ sounds good? haha! hope I'll stick to it and not regret study time! (always mid night is the study mood time :P

okiee yeorobun jaljayo goodnightt :> ~! `v`

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oh ya! so I think I'll have my language study at korea university and look out if I can cop inside and if their mass comm pr studies is reputable inside then only transfer tehee okie all the planning is done~! studyyyy! (I think I'll manage my nails first haha)

blahh time eater

pffttt I have been wasting too much of my time researching these stuff nowadays like now I would like to go to kyungpuk or busan national uni because they are more rural wth and I seriously cannot get enough information online you know and you'll start getting paranoid and I don't know where is the best place to study public relation .... zzz and I find it more in journalism and mass comm?? is it even the same I don't know I am so annoyed right now by myself ha-ha-

actually this just came into my thought, like, should I just go for a language program next year to try out in korea and to see if I like it? hahahaha I'll got beat up by my mom so whaat- I'm actually okay with it but they doesn't seem to have scholarship on language program IDON'TKNOWWW is there anyone whom I can ask noww??? I'm so confused :< I really hope there's some korean education fair going on in midvalley now ahaha let's just enjoy a meal and watch an episode of 2days1nights then lets start studying hmph

(I find myself lazy in all possible way and I don't think I can even secure any maintaining cgpa scholarship or I'll eventually dai ahahaha so, I better go along with kyungsung's all foreigners get 50% discount and so on or I may end up in the suicide mountain or what which I will not do that of courseeee ahaha
anywaaaaaay I don't think I need to actually be thinking about these stuff just.... study and put the korean language program as your testing for overseas and that's all keutt- Don't think anymore well, I think I wanna read about the "hislittlemoments.." later when I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cause I know I can't really totally get out sometimes hmm......

a little research on what uni to attend :P

sooooooo, basically I did some research and boom I think I had made my little decisions~

1.seoul national university for language program http://useoul.edu/apply/language/scholarships
2.yonsei for public relation & broadcasting journalism/communication? http://www.yonsei.ac.kr/eng/academics/special/journalism/index.asp

because of the scholarship amount ha-ha xD
well, this applies if I am not eligible for the jpa scholarship mehh :< and I'll have to fund myself :P

but, actually why I am I back to going to seoul to study and stuff! I though busan? haha! because of the great publicity I guess :P

Actually is my decision good? hmm... I was thinking about performing arts in seoul, broadcasting journalist in taiwan and public relation in us/canada though, which is quite impossible :P

studying in another country and travelling is really different you get to immerse into their society and really live there, you are not a tourist anymore!

I think getting my own way in korea is better than starting off in the us alone which I know nothing about and might be more dangerous I guess... we'll need to live alone and be not so dependent once in awhile in life right!
(although I'm a really dependent girl that rely on other people when doing all sorts of stuff but I really hope sometimes I can do stuff myself ahhh well, or I'll just find a guy at korea to lead me around? haha! xD)

actually since I'll still have time so maybe the route awaiting me could be 1.jpa or 2.snu's kli then I'll see what comes up next!~ 

since it's about studying seoul is not a necessity , I'm okay with rural sites if they are reputable school I'll just have to find out during my time in korea during my language program period hmmm.... or if I got the jpa I'll just go with yonsei! since hey they are paying for you xD (if I really do get the scholarship pshhh)

soooo, what's coming up with my life now is study study study to get a chance then later on after my examination I would need to learn as much as possible korean myself here in malaysia! so that maybe I could skip a few level and get a higher topik level so I get more scholarships hahaaa!

so now get your ass off and prepare to studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! (after going to the toilet and eating a banana maybe hmmm

#feeling determined! heh ;> !

I wanna pursue my undergraduate studies in korea~!

-Seoul National Univ., Yonsei Univ. are th best. Korea, Seogang and Seongkyunkwan are also selective universities.

hmmmm.... from https://malaysia.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110715210406AAbkwYh

ideal majors - public relations, broadcast journalist & electively theatre studies (dancing and acting yay!) xD
well, I'm kind of out of my mind now thinking about going there after my spm :P since they grant foreign students with at least a 50% discount sooo I think it' affordable even without a scholarship (hey! that's a kind of scholarship too! criteria foreigners? ha! that's easy then xP

It's just where should I study now hmmm and if I am able to enter them hmmm and if I would want to get jpa scholarship because referring to the past application it seems to only open for those engineering related course hmmm..... and if korean undergraduate government scholarship (KGSP) I would need to wait until September and I don't really think I'm eligible because my purata is not constantly above 80% throughout my school years and only 2 people will be selected hmmm....

SO, maybe I'll just stay longer in Malaysia until march for my spm result and graduation cert and to see if JPA opens a scholarship for all courses then I would try to apply or not I'll just apply for the norm language program in a normal university then try to apply for some top university for my undergraduate program hmm....

Actually there's not really a need in applying for top unis but they worth a try! haha! and, by the way the living cost in these unis would also be high because firstly, they are located in SEOUL, next, they are fully packed with foreigners like meeeee~! but, if I study in busan :P (okay this just recalled me of the time when I tell the ahjusshi i love busan satoori and he got shocked and tell me to learn seoul korean and only speak seoul's korean when the busans speak satoori with me haha!)

well, by that there's a higher chance for me to first, get a part-time job, and... I don't know? being more a more odd one? haha!

But then, is there any cool unis in cheongju because guys there are hot!! xDD (off topic xp) imagine meeting the jungs jjy jjy jungjinyoung n jungjoonyoung ahaha

well, my reason to go there is not only because of kpop like others drama and stuff but just, I'm a very asian person and it's like a core with white asian like me~! and are proud of it! haha! and they love their country unlike my un-united people :< maybe I could change that by bringing their perspective back here? nahh it's too hard but still, I'm proud to be a Malaysian just because I'm born here regardless of the low achievements we made hehe (I have no contribution in it it's more worse right!)

After finishing my undergraduate I may come back to Malaysia and try to apply my masters' scholarship with the korean government and if I failed to get one maybe I would start to find a job in korea or maybe malaysia depending on my home sickness heh or applying a scholarship in the canada (weee~! another country I love haha!) after the masters....... maybe I shall decide a place I want to be :P

btw, if possible after my undergraduate studies along with a job, I seriously would love to go on a vacation with my family with me and my big bro as the pillars haha! we would fully sponsor and support it :P (with my mom choosing the places to go! haha)

ahh... so is there a no need to study now? nope~! because if jpa offers a scholarship you would need it! and......... for a prettier resume? :P and you have nothing much to do now right? except to study :P so, just do well! you might need it for a amazing jpa scholarship! tehee :P !

It's this SUNDAY! 8D

Sooo... I handed in my letter of interview (??) to our school counsellor and she looks happy that we had been accepted to go for the interviewing session and if you notice "we" ! haha! I found a school mate that was also accepted(well this term is not very accurate because its just the first step of interviewing like, we are not literally accepted we still need to undergo aloot of processssssssss  just by thinking about that I feel so worried and well sad heh :<) but then seriously I got a lot of support and encouragement from my trusty friend yiqing :DD she believe that I hold a high chance of being accepted! :DD well I really hope soo~ so I really need to do well to not put her down hmm

 

hmm back to the counsellor stuff, so, ms shirlena told us that we should prepare some basic knowledge about malaysia's basic cultures and stuff hmm soo today I open up this post to post some basic knowledge here... I wonder what should I post hmm actually since I'm from the culture and theater club maybe they would expect more from me hmm maybe I should search for the names of some traditional dances (because I never really remember their nameee xD) well let's gogogo!!

 

malay-mak yong, zapin, joget, kuda kepang, silat, lilin

chinese- well I dance those ethnic in china

indian - bharata natyam(poetry dramatic) , bhangra (heavy beat, lively)

 

(I suddenly got lazy because I don't think they will be so strict about these stuff right *yawns* let just stay original xD)

 

okaay now lets go in point form.... oh no I'm so lazy I'll just plan some in school tomorrow ah lazzyyy lets watch the other half part of roommate ep5!! xD

Oh my my darling

I'm sososo nervous right now! so, it's actually not thaat big amount of people participating like from what I expect... but it's still a huge amount gahh! I need to compete with more than 550 people from all over Malaysia! ahh! could I do my best to over power them? haha! actually I think I caan! of course I can! who are you? you are sookyan! xD so what makes a different by that? you are not some national squash player or what TT wua I'm going to cryy! the interview had started yesterday at Johor and today at sabah/sarawak? I'm not suree and damansara is the last to have the interview 22 of junee oh my my~ I'd googled some stuff about the interview yesterday and well.. first of all they will have some sort of group activity running outside the interview room and I have to be present by 7 with my pakaian sukan which I better wear a long pants because our school have shorts as our exercising uniform I will explain to them why I wear like that if needed haha!

thenn, its like parent session from 7:30 to 8:30 then I would need to wave goodbye to my mom and like "I'll call you later when I'm done lovess muackss"! or I would be very nervous and I hug them all day long? hahahaha I don't know I think I am number 40+ something I would need to wait for quite an amount of timeee! (hope I get to meet some great people from the group activity haha some guyyy xP) "hey stop dreaming that you would meet someone like jinyoung! he's one of a kind...NOT! I WILL MEET SOMEONE LIKE HIM OR I'LL HAVE TO KIDNAP JINYOUNG AND MARRY HIM AHAHA XD" heyyy heyy stoop! you're going off topic and Crazy! ahaha okaay~

So... then later I would need to enter the interview room when it's my turnn! I think I suck at these stuff I always prepare myself so hard then regret at the last minute for no reason and submit some rubbish shit stuff when its the time :< I always don't realize that if I didn't grab this chance there will be no more and stop hoping for more chances like this heyy! don't tell yourself its okay to lose it's okay if you can't get it it's so hard and stuff and maybe someone else who prepares more deserves it more and stuff hey no! you prepared a lot right! well mentally ha-ha xD but its your time to shine this time make people trust youu! let your family know you can do it! don't lose hope! hey! girl! (b1aa4!!!) wait.. xP hey girl! you can do it!! (nomu joah nomu joah ottoke molla molla molla molla ottoke~~ ije nanuen nae sarang hanleeee~~) woooo~~! heyyyyyyy you sicko xD
okayyy and what will happend in the interview room??? okay, it will be something like this..
me: Hi! My name is Siew Sook Yan these are my results, certificates and testimonials :D
interviewer (i): thankyou :) describe yourself!
me: Okayy so I'm a not ordinary high school student because I'm a chsian! haha! (wait this is so wrooong!!) (then what should I start off with?? I don't knoww xDD)
me: Okay so Hi~ I'm sookyan currently form 5 studying science stream in catholic high school :D I participate in our school's culture and theater club, the chinese orchestra and the archery club! I'm once in our cheerleading team and netball squad but I quitted to fully emit myself in my club activities heh. I think I actually devote myself too much into the culture club because of my love towards the culture and also maybe because of my love towards performing I think I belong to the stage, I love living on the stage haha

well, next about my personalities I think I'm cheerful alwaysss and I'm a happy go lucky kid :P and also a chatterbox! haha! I couldn't stop myself from talking blebleble and from what other say about mee they say I'm cute (well because I'm short ehe) and I look sexy when I dance because I look soo enjoyed when I'm dancing haha and people also say I'm quite straight forward haha I don't keep secretes :P but I doesn't hurt other's feelingw :>> !

Okay now about my hobbyy it's all about artt haha! I'm an artistic person! I'm a traditional dancer I dance all different races' dance and I love them aloot! I also play many musical instruments well starting from primary school when I'm in our school band, I play the trumpet! then in the secondary school when I join the chinese orchestra I choose to major in pipa (a traditional chinese instrument) and my sub is cello and double bass! we just had a concert a month before! I had performed in it! It's very grand not those small school stuff for charity and so onn heh well about a singing skills I think I'm just a bathroom singer xD
well and my baad spot is that I'm not mature I always need to lean towards someone for advices before I make a big decisions like the king also need a counsellor rightt haha I always seek advices from my trusty friends and most my mother well sometimes I interpret my stuff wrongly and made wrong decisions that I regret but I always do come to a great conclusion in the end just like the choice for the destination abroad I had made up my mind and I only have one choice now SOUTH KOREA! haha! this had burdened me a lot since the first day I know about this student exchange programme

okay now my dreaaam I want to be a interculturalist :D no matter in what field haha but I can't make sure myself to truly love it if I hadn't experience it before so this year program is a great way to let me expose more towards stuff like this and also bringing me away from my family members for me to truly know and find out myself be independence and make sure what I want to do in my life :D

other questions
i:promote malaysia
i:why south korea
i:tell me about afs
i: danceee xP

okay I'm very lazy now let me discuss about this tmr I want to enjoy some jinyoung now lazyyyyyy! hey I'm procrastinatorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

The last mid-term holiday!?

Ooops my last mid-term school holiday that I will ever had in my high school time had passed half of it just like that! D: I didn't really study my brother's book because after the post I got emitted into a hospital and well yeah I slacked 3 days straight in there feeling awful because of dengue :( I don't want to recall those bad memories we'll move on to the other details about my holiday, oh btw, getting sick doesn't literally mean you will lose weight, I actually gained weight throughout my stay in the hospital ha-ha- maybe I am some sad exception :L [stamp on] "sad case!"

Because of that, I skipped 2 goey's and 2 pmo practice making me unable to join them for the exchange programme because I was too embarrassed that if I just pop out suddenly not preparing a single thing the song and stuff... but It was actually okay to go after viewing some of their pictures online, but ah well, who cares? there's no such super cute guy there haha "hey! that's the point of exchange programme okay? xD" you devious kid :P 

okay, so my first week of holiday was spent in the hospital including the two original to be school day "exam dayyy" to be exact just because of dengue aih :< then the second week just struck by like this ! I had already passed half of it like slacking throughout the day for movies shows dramasss well I actually enjoyed the variety show alot heheh.

I didn't actually know my parents care for the word I say that much until now :< I just simply blarred that "hey! no travelling this year! spm!" and they took it very seriously that they really cancelled our trip out for me to study... hey! its holiday :( I seriously can't control myself to study ya' knoww; I know my plan for how to start studying but I just couldn't start and I don't feel like starting too aish :< what weight-loss stuff ahh, I'm too lazy for them :<

At the "so-called-first day of my holiday" I'm even lazy to download dramas... just look at my level of laziness, how will I start to study and exercise??? I seriously hope I could sunk into my couch forever <3 {for now} haha!

Oh ya, btw the real reason why I open back up my banana boat is because weee! I received the interview letter from AFS today! I am soo happy :D Seriously, I really don't want to disappoint myself because I had been anticipating this program since last year end when I first find out about it when I was surfing the internet for volunteering programs :< I feel very happy , nervous and I don't know I don't know what effort I could make to secure my place in here... This "ocean-like" interview is just the first part of all... just the small letter the "preliminary form" already took half my soul away by making my mind thinking of it constantly and now after receiving more concrete hope I seriously don't want to lose this chance of studying abroad at korea!!!!

Well, this hope is not even concrete to be honest, you still haven't went to the interview!! First of all, I really hope myself to get into shape first, since like as you know mommy as a interviewer says that they would not choose fat people, they would prefer healthy people..

Well next, its like I made a huge mistake after the submition.. I called to add Germany as my third option like I literally begged for that but I had regretted! During my time in the hospital I had thought a lot, and I seriously wanted to go to Korea, I had made my choice and my only choice - South Korea, I don't want to think anything more, that's where I want to go like seriously, I seriously need to grab this chance hard as it had been my dream to go there ever since I had met them hahahaha! "fan-girls" I always day-dream nowadays about my exchange year there... I seriously hope for that to happen!

I really don't want to disappoint myself T^T I'm putting a really high hope on myself now ottoke I'm really scared :< ! I must really do well in the first ever challenge! azzsa assa! First of all, the documents :> recommend letters hmm

1.pn.hun? why? I need some reasons for that tho
2.mdm lee hates me you need to know T^T
3.blahh hidayah I actually need to get my cert from her -.- I'm really annoyed about that now just because of a silly act of a brainless measly shit
4. well actually it doesn't necessary need to be someone right? ahahaa are you saying that you are going fake!? whaat! How could you think of that you de3viousss :PP

okay now the certs
1.I don't know precisely what certs I have actually I would need to check them out tomorrow and photostat somee I'm sure they aren't really serious on these stuff heh
the results
1.pmr
2.f4 last term IT SUCKS T_T (but ahh what could I do??

review what u had wrote beforee!!
and list out what you would answer if they ask
1.yourself
2.malaysia
3.why choose youu
4.why korea
5.why i suddenly add germany ahhh sooo stupiddd xPPPP
well it was because I was scared that they might miss out my application okay it's a devious trick to make them look at my stuff I knoww T^T heh regret ! regret all you want now!!!

okay now bongchong ahh go review the paper and pee and continue some midnight show!! <3 b1a4 jungjinyoung is true love {less than 3!}

a new start in the second half of the year! :D

Well, this blog is not suppose to be a blog nor a diary but a journal maybe? For me to express some of my thoughts and some stuff happening around me ahaha that's all start-

 

First of all, hmmm... I had an earlier start of holiday compared to the others because I was sick :( that's a really saddening case actually because I love to go to school haha and I didn't really hate exam as much as the other students do. I actually enjoy going school well, by that I could also meet my friends which are the resources of my happiness tehee!

 

But, oh well, I fell a sick last Thursday and got suspected to have dengue if I didn't recover by Sunday I would had to have a blood test, but meh I'm afraid so I didn't went to have a blood test haha! but, actually it's also because I'm not sure if it is still the medicine which I take that are still suppressing my fever and pain till today hmm.. I would had to wait till I finish them, we'll see how tomorrow!

 

heh, lets talk abut why I suddenly started a blog, hm.. My mom just happened to bring me to Paradigm and we walked into Harvey Norman then... I was looking at this piece of baby I'm tapping right now haha, she then asked me if I would like to buy it, of course I do! haha! That's the story how I happen to "accidentally" brought Joonie home x) xP welcome to the family! haha!

 

heh, if you had notice, I actually like to name my stuff :P not many just those that are very private that is ONLY MINE and ONLY I who can access them like my phone heechull :P my calculator jinyoungg xD and now my new surface jooniee! xD I seriously call them by their name haha! ah! I suddenly thought why didn't I gave my bag a proper name hmm? I had been calling her pink Kipling since my mom brought them for me from Vietnam in march hmmm...

 

Oh ya, a totally random one, I super recommend the thai shampoo,conditioner,treatment mask - Clairol! haha! its very nicee! I had been into it these few months :P But my mom wouldn't let me buy its leave on cream if I didn't finish my oil :< Do you know how long does it takes to finish one bottle of these leave on stuff? I had been using that oil for years! ahh well, I'll remember to apply them EVERYDAY! xD

 

ehe some weird confession here I love the tapping sound of joonie ahh xD

 

Still wondering when would my interview invitation arrive? Or had I been rejected? :<  I really hope I could get a full scholarship to have a student exchange year to korea from AFS wish me luck!

 

Oh, by the way, my mom actually refuses to let me be a marine mamalialogist just because she is afraid that I would had marry a fisherman as his son-in-law xD I seriously couldn't stop laughing xD but well, I was joking with that job only, I am still not very sure about my future pathway hmm.. all I know now is my stomach's feeling sucks eww!

 

Hmm lets set target for this short hm not so short but a quite long holiday.. first, print out all spm trials paper, next, read as many as possible my brother's collection of Eragon, go to physics tuition hahaha plan out a intensive training for the indian peeps "not sure if it would success or not though, will try to work that out hah!" find some sort of foldable mirror hmm.. and of course I will need to study something but I still haven't have anything in mind what to study, will figure that out later :> 

 

I think I should have a short break now, I'm feeling awful urghh byee monkeysss ! >3<