Helloo my bananas xD
Ahh I had made up my mind a little for now and I think I should really work hard on my studies ;>
But actually if its about following my interest being happy or studying for what I'm planning ahead but studying something I am not really interest in suddenly bothering me urghh...
Firstly, I would really love to study public relations in Korea so I can work as a PR there and enjoy what I love doing as in (yeshh meeting celebrities okaay xD) and getting involved in the entertainment industries (what I hoped to be in since small!)
Or, I'll study in Monash the bachelor of business and commerce double degree with communication. By that, I would be working hard on trying to be an entrepreneur that bring in korean university into Malaysia, welll that's what I hope I will be doing but it requires a lot of money and time I'll need to use my life to bet on it and I will have to give up my dream as a fancy pr living more comfortably with a constant salary hahaha
and I don't know if this dream is possible + I don't really have a solid count of succeeding it as I am not a chaebol loll + I'm not sure about its market in Malaysia too in the next 30yrs time or maybe 40yrs, it's a long way run though + I need a big bunch of money to do it too, I'll have to give up travelling around the world which is what I want to live for, if I happen to succeed and gain a lot of money to do so, I'll already be in my 50s that would be too old to be travelling freely and by that time my parents would be too old to be accompanying me
it's like making me choose between having my good times in my early age OR having a hard time first and achieving great success and enjoy in my old age
but it's not like I'll fail to have a great time when I'm old if I have a great early age experience
just maybe you'll feel that you didn't make something concrete in your life
but it's also not like that too for monash you can travel around the world through exchange programmes right
although it's just that it doesn't suit you by the dream of mine to bring my parents to travel with my own money
but actually up to the point it's actually if I want to live in Korea for the next 5 years or here and there.. yes, it's a pleasure to do so , and I'll able to live in my dream of oppass and stuff hahaha but if I travel, I'll be able to experience a lot and enhance myself right.
(I really love those moments where you actually discover yourself and realize much more than having the thoughts spinning in your head when you are analysing everything out in a blog post before telling you final decision and getting consultant from you mom haha)
Actually, there's something bothering too if I'm going to have various exchange programme to other countries, it's the cost ma'am! plus, is it really what you like to study commerce haha! you are even dreaming of getting film and theatre rightt (oh ya there's this seoul school of art right!) maybe I could try to get that scholarship hahahaha by that my future would change too miss :P
I am very sure of my future and also very unsure :P well who is making my to vary my dream? the scholarships that I try to get actually
there's pros and cons of going anyway though, I think you can always list pretty well out knowing what would benefit you and you think are great vs what is not really great but interesting and you love it.
well, you only live once you are not do min jun you can't try a variety of stuff you know :P
letting the scholarship decide is not actually bad, it's like a sign of god telling you which route is right for you :P
So, back to the point what I shall do now is to maximise my chance for all 3 routes
1.studying mufy
2.learning korean
3.seoul art uni (scholarship)
heyy you are getting back to the point where you are unsure of everything again xDDD
Sometimes I think I am a lot more mature and had researched my stuffs earlier than others from my same age, it's seriously bothersome to care about those that don't know anything and rant stupid stuff in front of me arghh and sometimes giving them over much of information leading them to overpower me in an instance without effort just because they met me this great friend that don't study that love to do researches ahead xDDDDDD (well because I love the internet, I love writing and reading xD)
okay so maybe I had decided undergrad in monash n phd in yonsei maximising my possibilities yeahh and I'll work in pr field in korea and if I happen to have sufficient money and there is still market in malaysia I will bring my plan up again ^_^ I'll just have to delay and shorten my time at korea hahaha
or during like the december if I happen to get into any audition xDDDDDDDD I'll just try really hard to get seoul art uni then later on aft 5yrs i'll study phd in monash and travel around the world yayyyy then come back kr for pr and earn money and if I have money I will bring up my plan
heyyy! so the problem now is where first, and it will be decided base on scholarship opportunity ^^
SO NOW STUDY FOR SPM TO MAXIMISE THE CHANCES yeahh zou yi bu kan yi bu lohh can de la you have a great plan liao but actually is business or no business oni lahh ok la if monash 1st jiu study cause add 1k oni mahh if sogang 1st jiu don study lo it wouldn't change much right if you study or not rightt dono leh study more is hao shi lai d ahh i think ok dy i think dao liao is need monash 1st!!!! but not so happy liao lo hor but it's for maximising your chance like what you are doing now although not so like right ^v^ okieee
then yonsei for phd lahh then i can work in kr mahh (Y)
okieeeeeee jz if i happen to get in audition jiu terbalik la xD ei it's back to the starting point liao sui ran still mcm no conclusion but its getting clearer dy
EH BACK TO THE POINT WHAT YOU CAN DO NOW
1. study spm
2. try audition
3. study kr
4. learn dance
5. try seoul art
6. see spm try mufy
7. try get monash
8. try get sogang
OK DONE I have a cute little 1 year check list le ^^ for now what I can do is just spm don't talk le yoo <33 ~~~
+ when holiday that time jiu sell ribbon + bracelets + ask if can teach + learn kr n dance
OKIE IT'S AN ORGANISED PLAN ADY GO STUDY CAN MAHH WHY YOU NO STUDY I WAN CRY LIAO TT
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