a loong looong post

Yooo I am backk~

Many things had happened since the last time I post

Well, I got into T4YP at KLPAC and is going for practice every Tuesday and Saturday by LRT and KTM apparently..

Also, I learned that "Doing something valuable" would be my new life aim.

Instead of "Follow your passion" well.. okay it's because I had accepted the fact that my passion doesn't correspond to what I am good at.. 

"Do what you are good at" is also shitty though, cause what I am good as is not what I want to do for the rest of my life though.

"I want to travel the world." It was my childhood dream.
"I want to help people." Something I never picture myself doing it, it was never in my bloodstream.

Maybe it's a destiny, in order to fulfill my dream, I'll have to do something good in exchange.

well, I personally think that other than dealing cocaine, everything is fine to me.

What about being an actress, well it was my dream and I guess I could still continue it part-time as from what I see now.

The first subject that I found I have vast interest in, is International Relations, when I visited Monash.

Then, it somehow developed into PR cause people ask me what the fuk is IR heh.

I almost signed up for IR under the ehwa scholarship cause I was recommended by the Korean embassy, but I mistaken it, it was for Korean studies.'

before that, I almost signed up for PR under Korean government scholarship but it just didn't work out.

They were the darkest moment in my life, WERE, but I guess its all great now.

I got fake hope about being an actress, which I turned myself down to pursue after knowing some insides, not really though.

filming was fun, theatre is hard, but just somehow the future I see for my path went dim..

AANDD just by the time I got all devastated, HUFS came.. with a IDS hahaha

International Diplomatic Scholarship by Hankuk University of Foreign Studies.

WAIT. I haven't really got the scholarship YET.

There will be an interview this Saturday via Skype and a test interview on Friday.

It's Tuesday midnight now, and I am nervous.

I don't find much to prepare and I am scared that I might regret not preparing enough though.

I will try to record myself down on Wednesday.

I tried Skyping with yiqing today though, and I found a great spot and got some 'view' advice from her

That was a pre-pre-interview skype though or a pre-skype interview testing's testing. I don't know what I am talking about please excuse me hahaha

I told them English was my native language, well technically it is I would say.

Although I speak English at home, but I was English Educated and I speak English with my friends.... AT KLPAC.. fkin chs is full of smart arse Chinese speaking people

I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS HOW TO SPEAK CHINESE..
because all races in chs speaks Chinese TT.. I'm doomed, by my ignorance aiks.
Well, it's okay I think my speaking skill is improving but though, I will not say English is my second language since I speak it since small and.. I JUST DON'T THINK IT IS

like gosh, I never learned it externally and I use it since small, I prefer reading and writing in English,  prefer conversing with strangers with English, I have all my examination since Kindergarten with English

JUST BECAUSE I'M FROM A CHINESE FAMILY AND LIVE IN MALAYSIA..

..I think they wouldn't believe me, oh gosh, I must do well in the interview to prove myself.

well, I hope that the interviewer is not American, or with American accent, cause... well, it's not that I dislike it, but yes I dislike it, thanks Joe for influencing me in a... is it a bad way? I DON'T KNOW

Why do I love Caps that much in this post. It feels like I'm shouting the words out and it's cool.

I hope my love to work in International Organizations that provide student exchange programs, volunteering abroad programs would come true though.

I want to work in different regions in the world, and I believe that HUFS would really help me with that, and by being a successful social worker I could make the school proud heh
'sudden thoughts or interview scripts that just pop out from my mouth, no, keyboard, erm.. fingers or nails, I'm using them to type so... let's just get over it hehe

I hope to get a scholarship, and I am applying for it, my mom wants to pay, and her dream of me not getting allowance came true, she wants to pay for me to live in a dorm and her dream came true too,

now I just really hope that I could get IDS, it would be my second life,

yes, after slacking for sooooo long heh.

I didn't really though, just these few weeks after the Penang trip I would say.

I kindna enjoy life, and I think it's great not really 'I could had done more.
Oh no! bro is going to sleep! I am going to be left alone in this dark stormy night! I shall go.. go where? sleep! No! I don't want to! what should I do?

Well, technically, I shut my laptop up went to wash my face and brush my teeth and continued practicing my interview until 7a.m.

now it's 12p.m. and I had just rescued joonie from a hiatus in my bro's room hehee
I'll have to get a blazer for my interview so off I go to prepareeee

(psh I'll make a make up tutorial later to prepare for my interview hahaha